I’m sure everyone has heard this saying “Everything happens for a reason”.
Just the mystery in that sentence is the reason itself?
After a while you slowly start to realise the small things that you haven’t before..
And all these things starts to drown your mind with thoughts
Like “Was it worth it?”; “What could have been” and all these little thoughts fills your mind.
These past few months i’ve been trying to find myself, cause i’ve lost myself in process.
How does one find one self?
How does one lose one self?
These two questions have been questions that i couldn’t answer.
Until i realised the answer.
You lose yourself by loving someone that may or may not love you/Care about you.
You find yourself by making yourself stronger, Doing the things you love, Creating your own type of happiness.
We always want to have the same type happiness that someone else has, but what we forget is, Happiness depends on ourselves.
If i could describe My Happiness it would be this:
Coffee, a Good book, stormy-rainy weather, Good food, Good Music and The person that sort of is an element to your happiness, A person that you can share yoyr while life with, and still choose to stay with you no matter what ♡
Do you ever get these random thoughts just out of nowhere, just of how things could have been or how they are or should be?
Those little scenarios that you make up in your mind of how you want something to be, but then you have the thing called “Reality” that slaps you by remind you of how things are and is/or never will change.
Just think if we could just change the reality, Go into that Secret fantasy world that we all want to escape to in the extremely mind-wreaking times.
I just wonder of how things would be if they were like they are in my mind.
They say everything happens for a reason, we may never know those reasons.
I just want to escape reality sometimes just for a while, just get my head straight.
So i just realised that this is for real, i’m starting my first job tomorrow, but to this like a few months ago i was still in school.
It’s so scary to realise how fast time can go 😮
I’m just starting out this whole “Being an responsible adult thing”
But it’s where my life actually starts right now
It’s where i figure out where i wanna be in the future or what i want to be doing in the future.
It’s a bit weird processing everything, but it has it’s ups and downs of course .
Everyone says that you are gonna miss school: It’s so true 😂 But you only miss some parts, i miss the fun times ☺
Stay Strong ♥ Tinieks 🔻